Took this girl I met to a
hotel and couldn't get a boner for anything. She was hot, into me, and the room was nice, but my dick might as well have been a sock full of sand. I have to confess, I'm terrified it's not just a one-time thing. I'm worried this is the start of real erectile dysfunction.She was trying everything, kissing my neck, touching me, and I was just lying there, my mind racing with panic. I kept thinking, "Come on, work, you traitorous piece of shit!" but nothing was happening. It was like my brain and my dick weren't even on speaking terms. The look on her face went from eager to confused to, finally, this kind of pitying disappointment that was somehow worse than anger.
I made up some excuse about being tired and stressed from work, but as I was driving home, I felt this cold dread wash over me. This isn't the first time it's happened lately. There was a hook-up a few weeks ago where I barely managed to get it up, and I blamed it on the booze. But this time, I was stone-cold sober. My body is sending me a message, and I'm terrified of what it is. I'm in my early 30s. I'm not supposed to be worrying about this shit. I'm supposed to be a guy who can get a boner in a stiff breeze. Now, I'm a guy who's scared to even try, because what if it happens again? What if my dick is just... broken?